valerie01

I am a submissive university-educated woman and yet I am seeking to learn. Have led a way too sheltered life. I have no experience with anal sex and would like to learn about that with a skilled SLOW understanding man. Also needed is good old fashioned missionary sex, preferably with a man with oversized testicles that can produce more than an average amount of ejaculate when he spends himself or squirts his load inside me.

I have had spanking dreams for some time now also, and these dreams usually center around a man taking me over his knee in the traditional manner like this:

http://xhamster.com/movies/6826101/thursday_s_spanking.html

http://xhamster.com/videos/spanked-over-his-knee-6501493

http://xhamster.com/videos/roue-6520618

http://xhamster.com/videos/blond-girl-gets-it-3433866#mlrelated

and hand spanking me soundly until I suddenly break down and start crying, although sometimes for some reason I have had dreams of a woman giving me a spanking with both sides of a hairbrush (the flat side and the bristle side).

I am somewhat confused by how strong my spanking dreams are. On the one hand, sometimes I think it is just the natural order of things, you men are supposed to be the more aggressive and dominating gender while us women are supposed to be submissively shy and meek. I am shy, yes. Very much so. But I also read novels, and know other women have strong spanking dreams too. In one of my dreams I am asleep at night and a man enters my room wearing a religious robe, similar to a monks robe, and he gets me up out of bed and takes me across his knee and lowers my pyjama bottoms to my knees and really hand spanks me quite hard on my bare bottom until I cry. I have had this dream multiple times, and I never see the man's face, as his hood covers it. This is a recurring dream for me, and shocking how very real and vivid and graphic the spanking on my bottom is, when I have that dream. What amazes me is sometimes I awaken from that dream with my pyjama bottoms all bunched up under the covers down at the foot of my bed. Explain that!

When I was growing up, a girlfriend and I were at a sleepover with 6 other girls. One had not done her homework. When her daddy got home and found out about it, he spanked her right in front of us, her pyjama bottoms down, on her bare bottom. Perhaps that had a stronger influence on me than I allow myself to realise. During that spanking, for some reason, I felt I should have gotten it too...it profoundly affected me, and during that time I closed my eyes and for more than a moment it was me across her daddys lap.

Maybe it was seeing that way back then that has prompted me to have these fantasies, I do not know. I even have fantasies that I know will never happen to me, such as getting called up to the front of the classroom and my professor waving an essay I wrote (with the poor grade I earned) then taking me over his knee and spanking me bare bottomed right in front of the entire class of both men and women. Weird, yes. And sometimes I get scared by this, my knees shaking, my bottom clenching and relaxing, clenching and relaxing, just thinking about it.

https://xhamster.com/videos/rosanna-humping-hand-10687916

Sometimes its scary how similar some of these videos on here are to myself. The woman in the above video looks a lot like me, though admittedly I am not as young as she is - she even masturbates the same way I do, although there have been times in my life that I have placed a pillow under my midsection, imagining that I am laying across a mans lap getting a spanking, as I masturbate just exactly like that blonde. Amazing. It is such an eye-opener for me to learn there are other ladies out there just like me.

Please note that there are videos in my favourites that relate to serious whippings (such as breast and vaginal whippings). Yes, I would like to experience that, but only with a man I trust completely, built up over time.

Generally speaking, I am not interested in an uneducated man, nor a man that has the typical biker look - a lot of tattoos and a studded leather jacket, for example. I am very much attracted to older businessmen, professor types, well-dressed men and men with a deep voice, and caring and understanding men with a dominant streak that will teach me lessons over his knee and in bed. Also I like men with a hairy chest and men that are not shaved (down there). I need a man who is powerful yet does not need to prove it. A man in control yet who is not overpowering. A man who knows how to control my tendency to go "overboard" without breaking my spirit or damaging my ego.

I've certainly done THIS a lot of times, while masturbating face down and imagining getting a spanking in a thousand different scenarios:
http://xhamster.com/videos/self-spank-4057347
and
http://xhamster.com/videos/self-spanking-with-hair-brush-5949699#mlrelated
And the thing is, I think what I would need to happen is have a man spank me before he has his way with me. Why is that?

Also, for some reason, I cannot imagine a man ASKING if he could spank me. I would want it to happen spontaneously - like just automatically taking my hand and leading me to the bedroom and hauling me over his knee the very moment he arrives at my flat for a date with me. Well. Maybe not THAT quickly. But you undertand what I mean, yes?